Q: Can I study Kabbalah even though I’m not sure how it will affect me?
A: Anyone can begin to study Kabbalah. If the Creator gave you a desire to advance in spirituality, you will develop a unique approach to life, to people around you, and to yourself.
The natural, genuine development of each of us should be gradual, in accordance with our understanding of the world around us. We change to the extent that we discover the other world that exists around us. That is why it is said that there is no coercion in spirituality; it is only a question of will, and only the Creator can change the will.
Therefore, your mission is to absorb the texts diligently and the rest will come in due time, if and when there is a need for it.