When You Run Out of Strength
A person advances when he is able to withstand two lines: the right and the left. Within the line that extends from above downward he feels down, disappointed, desperate, weak, and dejected. But in the line that extends from below upwards, everything is opposite. That is when we reach an analysis.
For example, I feel totally exhausted physically, mentally, and morally. I cannot organize my thinking, my consciousness is blurred, and nothing is of any importance. I want to forget it all and fall asleep so I won't feel anything.
However, ascending above this state for a moment, I assess it as a good state. There is a Psalm that reads, "For he who is dead is free." Now I am free of my egoism; it has died and does not demand anything from me.
If a bit more Light comes to me, then I understand the reason for this state, that it was sent to me by the Creator. He wants me to figure it out: Why do I need a desire that does not want anything and is unable to do anything? Why did He send it to me?
The Light illuminates my current state of downfall, revealing its causes, which in turn become the starting point for me to start growing anew. The sages said, "A righteous man rises in the place where egoism falls." My egoism falls, and a righteous man is born from it. In one line I see that I have fallen to the bottom, but in two lines I begin ascending.
The recession happens only for the sake of the Light's influence, so the Light would give me the second line to help me start thinking above the sensation I feel. It lifts me above the sensation of "sweet or bitter" to the analysis "true or false."
A person must always place himself beneath the Light so the Light would lift him above the sensation and show him the truth, the reason, the One who does it. Even an unclear sensation or knowledge of the reason, the Creator, the One who depicts the picture of the world inside me, changes my perception of the picture to its opposite. Then I am happy that the Creator gave me such a negative, lowly sensation. It is weakness that enables me to act.
Once I figure out the situation, I have a goal and a means. Having been awakened, I begin to get up.
From the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 10/4/10, "What is the Help that One Should Ask of the Creator"